beginning of the qtr

Ever have an overwhelmed feeling at the start of a project or academic qtr? I am going through this right now.

I planned out my study list and courses for the qtr, but I don't feel very rigid right now.

like:

Result = class 1 + class 2 + class 3 + performance class 1 + P. Class 2 + student leader duty + X

that X can be ANYTHING.

X may be (2*drama), X may be (10* extra work study ), or X may be (picking up slack for other people) ....

X MAY be an ADDITION OF ALL OF THE ABOVE.

I am not feeling good about this qtr AT ALL.

and I better do well in these classes. I like the topics in these classes...so I should be ..fine?

first day of schoolll

the past month had been sleepless nights.

while all the OTHER kiddies/undergrads are superexcited about getting back to school (horray), my team here is working hard to make their living in the residential halls an amazing year.

already, i have met amazing people...such as these awesome roommates a summer session prior to my first year (yes...u can be in college the summer before college official starts as a freshie) 

so i wanted to make this year an amazing year with awesome people around me. 

so. meet my team everyone ;)

although i've got to say...i don't know each and everyone personally, but they all bring forth so much when teamwork is required, that sometimes, guiltily, i feel like as long as you get ur job done, we don't have to interfere with each other's personal lives...unless u want..ur DRAMA to become ours.

and i like that. i like how i dont have to tell them every snippet of my life...not like they know my life anyways...1) they don't know i have this BLOG. DUGHHFIEU#($)#$

but with every "corporate" team comes with OL drama...well, school just started and the soup's brewing. very mild though...idk who'll be adding spices later...but it's NOT GONNA BE ME I SWEAR.

i'm low key. ;)

well WOO HOOO FIRST DAY OF SCHOOLLL TODAY!!!

i'm prepared for 6 hours of

yap yap yap

from professors...if i have time i'll teach the "perfect zone out mode" -->aka

sleep during class

until then

-Jes

update: boards!

tired...less than 4 hours of sleep every night for the past week ;(

and tonight is not gonna get any better!!! I didn't know preparing to take care of residents will be this intense and tiring!!!

with all my <3, blood, sweat, and tears, I present to you one of the sign boards in my building I have been working in the wee hours on

just with these utensils

I still need to design the other board!!! anticipate! and it has to be done tmw ;(

japanese commercials!

<3 the commercials !!
esp the shiseido and docomo ones ;)

update

for the many first times,

i finally realized i m actually appreciated by the little things i do for them.

and i can say things without fear

and be very productive yet having so. much. fun.

thank you ucla orl ;)

and...
i really miss my summer roommates cristal and misha
there are so many things, memories, hobbies we share ;) my first time talking about culture differences, problems with society, sustainability, etc <3 them

;) :]

tired from training today.

i was so tired... from doing something like this:

Sunset Canyon's Ropes Challenge Course . 


sorry, i didn't have pictures....but if u just google that..u'll find hella images...


and i'm tired. ..from having to be all professionally in front of people and :) : ) :)  
at them! ahh! and i'm living with the people i'm living with through the year...so i have to be courteous. 
and damn i do a good job. 
i try. 


i dont want to have my faults discovered so..soon..


o wait. there's MORE. i get the WEEKEND OFF to cram my 2 finals...!!!! fuck. life sucks doesnt it. i have to get this done by monday because i have camp on tues to wed... GAHHH!!!!